Friday, March 04, 2011

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can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars..i would really need a wish right now .wish right now..

can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars..
i would really need a wish right now..wish right now..wish right now..


the numbers remind me of what we fought over..and it also reminds me not to do it again regardless was it an intentional reason or something misunderstood.

like you said....i am only human ..and i cant possible ever understand what you think..like how you would never know what im thinking..

that's what words are for.

if we leave things as it is..then nothing would be done..no one would understand anyone
everyone would be fighting with each other..

that is why everytime we fight..the first thing i ask myself is..what i did wrong again..
and i spent hours days trying to figure..
and when i really cant get it..then i ask you.


i dont wanna say you are unreasonable..maybe sometimes..
but just because whatever i did may seem small to other people..it doesnt mean it may to you..
everyone have their boundaries i know..

but it just seem like everytime we fight..it starts with a misunderstanding..
..
if we had sorted things out..wouldnt you be more free and happy..wouldnt you not need to be angry or sad as well?

you told me..i always seem to find a way to piss you off..

you really think that way..
you really think i want to piss off my best friend?

i felt really shitty when you said that..
it makes me wonder..because i am one who can affect you..as you said

if staying with me makes you angry and hurt even more than what normal people do..or strangers or classmates..

i dont know what words i can use to express how important you are to me.
it's like..i dont need the whole world by my side..
i just people i can smile with..people i know when i fall..they are there to help me..

but maybe
just maybe..

maybe if you are without me ..

you could fly higher
you dont have to be sad because of me
you dont have to be angry because i did something wrong in your eyes


then i rather just you let go
and fall on my own

.its.so.colourful.and.beautiful.at.10:18 PM