Wednesday, May 05, 2010

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i want to be alone..
i want to be with people..

i want to go out play..
i want to stay at home...

i want to stay pure..
i want to offer my soul to the darkness..

i want to smile..
i want to cry..

i want to hold your hand and fly..
i want to crush you so you cant fly..

i want to tell you my darkest fears..
i want to lock them in my heart and let no one know..

i want to smile and tell its all okay..
i want to cry and tell you how i really feel..

i want to kill you..
i want to hold you..

i want you to be happy...
i want you to suffer as much as i am..

i want to feel..
i want to think..

i want to be as heartless as i can be..
i want to be the warmth everyone would seek

i think..in the end..i just want someone to be with me THERE..
where no one has ever went in..
to understand every single thing about
and like me because of who i am..
but thats hard for me...
cause i dont want to get hurt anymore..

..
im an idiot..i know..
im looking forward to everyday..somehow..
i'll be fine..
so dont worry

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