Wednesday, April 28, 2010

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i was crossing the traffic light road by my house today..and somehow...things seem to slow down a bit..
and there i stood...
wondering..
is anyone there...

dont ask me what relation there is to that of me standing at the crossing..i have no idea..

im having this alone feeling suddenly..
like there is the aura of loneliness surrounding me...
though im practically talking to people everyday..it seems as though they are not the "water" im looking for to "quench my thirst"

i dont mean to appear MEAN..
it just that i think like..we are just talking..at the surface level..like just talking friends..

not close friends that understand you..
you know?..
argh.. nevermind..

a friend told me he love the rain..
i always smile and nod..but say nothing

its not that i dont share his views..
i did loved the rain..
when you have friends playing in the rain with you..its the best.
but when they disappear one by one, and all that is left is you standing in the rain..looking like an idiot..
it just sucks..
....

i dont know...im thinking...alot lately..
about myself..
about people around me..
about my life..
im starting to let it go now...

like last time..it gonna hurt definitely
but its gonna go.

AND I REALISED SOMETHING..OMGG...
FRESHIES WEAR LIKE MORE MATURE THAN ME..
TnT
and i bought like this 2 shirts [WHAHA I WENT SHOPPING..SHOCKED EH EH EH?!]
and mum think its childish..
shit..

TnT..i need to look my age man...
or i wont get a boyfriend..ahhhhhh~~
ahaha nah..i dont really get about getting one..

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