Thursday, March 25, 2010

[ x ]

sigh..
so many things have happened recently..
god..it feels like the calm before the storm..LOLS

it sucks when you cant convey your feelings to others.
it sucks when you realised, in the end you are standing alone.
it sucks when you wonder why you couldnt do it and others could.
it sucks when you see the truth but it hurts so you deny yourself and said " its ok".
it sucks when you know, to be honest, you tried your best but others think otherwise.
it sucks when you found out that the warmth you thought you felt and you had, dont belong to you.
it sucks when the only thing you can/could do is, pretend to smile and let the blade penetrate your heart..till the bleeding stop.


i don't know what to do anymore.
sigh..
i guess thats the way things are..you can help others but somehow you never fail to let yourself fall.
the tears wont stop until the pain in my heart does.
the pain wont stop until the feelings in my heart does.
the feeling wont stop until i stop following him around.

so i guess...thats the only way to stop it.
...

i wish things would go back the way they were before..
or maybe..i should just disappear.

.its.so.colourful.and.beautiful.at.12:13 AM