hmm....im getting shaggier and shaggier...i cant help it...its like something is eating me away inside...dont ask me what it is..im still figuring it out...im getting depressed over somethings..which im trying hard not to..its not my fault...its just...haiz..i gave up explaining myself..
this is just some ranting i wanna rant about..its nothing against anyone...its just me..
i KNOW I AM TALKATIVE..well..i cant help it can i?...then you expect a bunch of people to JUST SIT TOGETHER AND EMO?...when i talk..i just want to make everyone happy..maybe cause of the jokes i made..the expression i made..the funny voices i made..the lil fights i made with someone..but then...some OF YOU GUYS JUST WANNA BE FUNNY RIGHT...keep saying i talk too much..WTF..then am i supposed to sit one side watch as the rest of us do the same?..
X : hi..
Y : uh..ya hi..
Z : hello...
ME: oh..HI..
wtf...i rather die than sit with you lame SHITS....then when i DO eventually STOP..you guys would ask.."EH..DONT EMO LEH..." KAN NI NA...sitting down and keeping MY MOUTH SHUT IS EMOING...
HELLO..EMO IS..SLASHING YOUSELF IN THE WRIST..JUMPING DOWN A FUCKING BUILDING..GODKNOWS WHAT ELSE YOU PPL CAN DO..
sometimes..i dont know how to please you people..its like...none of you guys actually REALLY KNOW ME AT ALL......im not complaining about any of you guys..cause seriously..i found..actually..i dont know you guys too...i failed living my 16 years of fuck life...im sick and tired to acting happy and whats not when i am not..when im kind..or what fuck..you guys take it for granted....im tired really..hiaz...forget it..
i think its time i grow up..i did actually...a few year back..i know what i can do..what i cant..what i should do..what is shouldnt...but i dont give a fuck care..cause i wanna enjoy life...but apparently..i dont see myself enjoying it...
sometimes i wish i can be like the stories book characters..where they are quiet and merciless..that way..probably...i'll live a happier life..im sick and tired of putting up with whatever shit you guys throw at me...
im really tired..
maybe its really time..to just grow up..lols..stopping acting like a kid..can someone teach me how to be me....cause i got so many masks i dont know which one is me...im losing myself i guess..
LOLS....just let me rest..
I REPEAT..THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYONE..im just going over what i feel..lols..ITS MY BLOG..SO I CAN RANT ANY SHIT I WANT YES?!..IF NO FUCK OFF MY BLOG
alright ranting over..back to business..
long's blog sure have some weird things..lols..she always do some quizzes..that i have no idea where it came from..lols..
so i did as well..ima bored..
Humor!
people love you for your sense of humor. you like thinking on the positive side and always keep things lived up. friends see the real you and love that you know then so well. some of your drawbacks may include being a total chatter box, and maybe getting on your friends nerves once in a while.you are great at cheering people up and you are well... a people prson!
lols..if this is true..lols..ima die happy..sometimes i believe people think ima crack or im just some crazy bitch that cant control herself..lols..
ireaalllyywishhthisistrue...
PUHH..
i wanna go out play..
sometimes i wonder if the person above will send me someone nice?..
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