Saturday, January 19, 2013

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久しぶり .. :] お元気ですか?
私はあなたの罰金願っています
私たちの間に何が起こったかは関係ありません...
私はまだ私の友人としてあなたを取る...

今度本当にあなたが幸せであることを望む :]

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Friday, July 13, 2012

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SO FUCKING NICEE... I WANNNTT <33 the red one or may be the blue one?...

prolly red.. FUCKING SEXY HOMGG~~ <3

http://www.au.kddi.com/iida/english/products/x-ray/features/

http://jap4u.blogspot.sg/2007_04_23_archive.html 

.its.so.colourful.and.beautiful.at.8:52 PM

Friday, July 06, 2012

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its been a while..  i took up driving lessons with the private instructor recently.. it was alright.. then on the 3rd lesson.. for some reason i kinda fucked up real bad.. like doing the wrongs things..hence earning me a good scolding for the first 45 mins.. with lines quoted by that instructor "why you keep doing wrongly?.. why you never listen to me? "

lol i replied with.. uh.. [actually my brain is like stoned literally.. i just have no idea why i didnt perform] " uh i scared motor bike bang me lol" ..wrong answer.. -_-' he went ballistic and ask me to move the car to a side then said things like *in chinese * " wah you cannot like that la.. you really cannot make it ar.. i draw give you see.. if bike want bang us let them bang..im trying to save you okay..  you just listen to what i say..  i must also make it clear to you.. okay! i am top 3 instructor ... you should be *he did this praying action* saying WAH THANK YOU Mr NG! you very good.. you the best.. ..
then i just nodded.. then he say you have to stop changing my things and do as i told.. in here, what i say is rule is order.. there is no room for arguments.. you dont come and waste money  ..
so i said.. i am not fighting with you.. i know i did the wrong things..im.. just a bit blur and confused..

then he said okay la i say so much .. you ALSO SAY SO MUCH.. you win la.. you confuse la..

honestly by this time i had a great deal to shout back at him and say LOOK I KNOW I SUCK.. BUT IM FUCKING STILL LEARNING CAN YOU CALM THE FUCK DOWN AND LET ME LEARN AND RESPECT ME MORE.. STOP ACTING LIKE A MOTHER FUCKER DICTATOR........ plus a reason why i took private was to save money and also cut down on the lessons [which brings more focus to saving money]
but well.. i just figured shutting up would be better.. and so i did

then sadly. the rest of the lesson im still in the stone mode.. = me cocking up like mad...  nearly mounted a curb [hence nearly getting into an accident] .. needless to say the instruct went fucking nuts mad and seriously gave the stare and like keep scolding me with lines of " I GOT ASK YOU TO TURN ANOT? WHY YOU DO THE C/C.. WHY YOU NEVER do what i say.. WE NEARLY kena accident you know a not?! huh.. you think fun is it? you ar.. you really cannot make it.. why your friend.. that uh kang ling [kaili btw] learn so fast you like that one? keep doing wrong things then i ask you do this you give me that .. YOU KNOW every one i teach at least 99% never give me problems.. you ..YOU so much problem.. [he took out this book of his] you are the only one.. wait no got another one.. but only you and him ar cannot make it ar.. [he mark this 3 red cross thing on my info page no idea what that abt] you see your 3rd lesson worse than your 1st lesson.. "

i just and can only keep saying " sorry.."

then like that i think last 30 mins i finally get back my touch and so did almost everything properly..
then when the lessons ended.. i really feel like puking up and smacking my head against something ..
then he say " actually can learn new things.. but you cock up so bad.. waste your money loh.. [then he did teach me some theory based things] and said liike that you not wasting money la hor.. "

then i just say " i know i am in THE WRONG [stop fucking saying it.. and at least rmb i AM A FUCKING 'STUDENT' IF NOT I WONT BE HERE ASSHOLE...] sorry "

then he give this fucking cb face of being happy that i said im wrong " okay la you say what is what la.. you dont come fight with me again.. you know you wrong and you are sorry.. i take that loh."

knn so suay i finish lesson then start raining again.. so i walk to the bus stop ..lol well thank god it was raining [and the bus stop has no one] so.. it was a rare occasion of me walking and crying.. fuck best la my life.. i really do know its my fault.. but i just hated that he treating me like as if im just some rich fuck coming here with my money and acting like a spoiled brat.. and that i should friggin worship him ...

i dont know... kinda messed up real bad inside now.. for once.. i had the urge to do something to myself.. crazy shit no?

went home.. couldnt take it.. so i napped.. and in my dream.. i complain to my family and they were with me.. scolding him for being mean.. and just telling me to continue slowly.. dont need rush i could do it...
woke up laughing to myself.. what a bullshit dream.... at first i didnt wanna tell anyone.. i dont need more ppl telling me im useless

so evening .. i eventually told my mum and my big sis.. and well talk talk talk then i cry lol.. [so noob me]
.. well what i wished for and what i expected to get was two different things.. and volia i got what i expected.. a scolding

" why you always like that.. do things half way then a bit of things cry.. driving only you also like that .. dont like dont drive la"

well my only consolation was my big sis was kinda nice with that mocking tone ._.
" okay la.. dont cry la.. a bit only.. dont like then learn from him loh.. learn from sch one la.. [then she turn to my mum] you also la.. ppl come home sad you still scold her .."

then my mum went even more crazy " what scold her.. she already 18 19 [20 actually] still cry over lil things.. "

lol then i just gave up and went to bath.. [and it turned out to be one of the longest bath i ever toook]
kinda sat on the toilet seat thinking.. woah.. im really useless ..lol

lucky i borrow a set of comic from my mind..lol happy ending comic.. quite interesting so hmm..

well i figured..  cancer ppl are really emotional no?.. but then.. all we.. maybe i .. ever need was ...
nevermind-

.its.so.colourful.and.beautiful.at.8:07 PM

Sunday, November 13, 2011

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Te wo nobashi oikaketa
手を伸ばし追いかけた
Chasing and stretching the hand
Tsukame sou na shinkirou
掴めそうな蜃気楼
The mirage I grasp
Fureta yubisaki ga mune ni tsutaeru yo
触れた指先が 胸に伝えるよ
The touched fingertip is transmitted to the heart
Itsuka mita yume wo koko ni
いつか見た夢を ここに
One day the dream I saw is here

Kata ni noseta yuuyake no iro ga nabi ite
肩に乗せた 夕焼けの色がなびいて
Placing on the shoulder, the fluttering color of sunset
Sore ga hajimari wo tsugeru toki
それが 始まりを告げる時
That is the time I start telling

Otosanai yo oretachi no ikiru akashi wa
落とさないよ 俺たちの生きる証は
Don’t lose it, the proof of our existence
Donna iro yori mo tsuyoku kedakaku
どんな色よりも 強く 気高く
More than whatever color, it’s sublime strongly

Aa
ああ
Aah
Ikutsu no yoru wo koete meguriaetanda
いくつの夜を超えて 巡り合えたんだ
Our chance meeting exceeding how many nights
Ano hi no sora ni
あの日の空に
In that day’s sky

Te wo nobashi oikaketa
手を伸ばし追いかけた
Chasing and stretching the hand
Tsukame sou na shinkirou
掴めそうな蜃気楼
The mirage I grasp
Fureta yubisaki ga mune ni oshieru yo
触れた指先が 胸に教えるよ
The touched fingertip is teaching the heart
Itsuka mita yume no
いつか見た夢の
One day the dream I saw
Tsuzuki kara hajime you
続きから始めよう
Starting from the continuation
Tada soko ni tachitsuku shite
ただそこに立ち尽くして
I just stand still there
Naita oretachi no kaeru basho wa mou
泣いた俺たちの 帰る場所はもう
The place we who cried to return to is already
Tatta hitotsu shikanaku te
たったひとつしかなくて
It’s only one there

Yarikata nara ikura demo omoi tsukukedo
やり方なら いくらでも思いつくけど
If it’s a way to do, I’ve thought about it many times
Kore ga ore no yarikata to kimeta
これが 俺のやり方と決めた
This is it, I’ve decided my way of doing

Hamukau nara sore nari no kakugo wo kimete
歯向かうなら それなりの覚悟を決めて
If it’s striking back, deciding my resolution as it is
Oide ima koko de kotae miseru yo
おいで今ここで 答え みせるよ
Come here, right now I’ll show you the answer here

Aa
ああ
Aah
Karada ga oboete iru koko ni tatsu koto wo
からだが覚えている ここに立つことを
My body remembered about standing here
Ano hi no mama ni
あの日のままに
In that day

Maiagaru toki no suna
舞い上がる時の砂
The flying sand of time
Kiete ukabu shinkirou
消えて浮かぶ蜃気楼
The mirage that floated and disappeared
Tojita me no oku ni kin iro no hashi to
閉じた目の奥に 金色の橋と
Inside the closed eyes, the golden bridge
Ano hi no yuuyake
あの日の夕焼け
That day’s sunset
Kataku chikatta kotoba wo
かたく誓った言葉を
My words of vow
Nando mo omoi kaeshite
何度も思い返して
No matter how many times I re-think
Naita oretachi no kaeru basho wa mou
泣いた俺たちの 帰る場所はもう
The place we who cried to return to is already
Tatta hitotsu shikanaku te
たったひとつしかなくて
It’s only one there

Te wo nobashi oikaketa
手を伸ばし追いかけた
Chasing and stretching the hand
Tsukame sou na shinkirou
掴めそうな蜃気楼
The mirage I grasp
Fureta yubisaki ga mune ni oshieru yo
触れた指先が 胸に教えるよ
The touched fingertip is teaching the heart
Ano hi mita yume wo
あの日見た夢を
The dream I saw that day
Tsuzuku monogatari wo
続く物語を
The continued story
Tsuzuttekureru anata wo
綴ってくれるあなたを
You who are bound
Naita oretachi no kaeru basho wa sou
泣いた俺たちの 帰る場所はそう
The place we who cried to return to is yes
Tatta hitotsu shikanaku te
たったひとつしかなくて
It’s only one there

<3 homg homg Yukimura Seichii song [ Yume no tsuzuki II] is nicee <3

.its.so.colourful.and.beautiful.at.8:59 PM

Thursday, November 03, 2011

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ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi yo kesenai kako mo seoi atte ikou ikiru koto wo nage dasanai de
tsunaida kimi no te wo
itsuka ushinatte shimau no kana usurete iku egao to kimi wo mamoritai kara hibiku boku wo yobu koe sae kare toki ni sou kaze ni kaki kesaretatte kimi wo mitsuke dasu
ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de mienai mirai ni okoru koto subete ni imi ga aru kara ima wa sono mama de ii kitto kizukeru toki ga kuru daro
sabikitta hito no you ni
kasanari au dake ga munashikute hitori de ikite ikerutte itta arifureta yasashisa kotobajya ima wa mou todokanai hodo ni kimi wa uzukidasu
tsunai da kimi no te wa nanigenai yasashisa wo motome Do you remember itami wo shiru koto de hito ni yasashiku nareru kara Drive your Life
ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de mienai mirai ni okoru koto subete ni imi ga aru kara ima wa sono mama de ii kitto kizukeru toki ga kuru daro
How can I see the meaning of life kieteku you're the only. . .
kowarenai you ni to hanarete iku kimi mou waraenai nante hito girai nante kotoba sou iwanai de ima wa by and by mie nakuttatte subete ni imi ga aru kara kesenai kako mo seoi attekou ikiru koto wo nagedasanai de
You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . your different Life? You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . modoranai kedo
hizunda kioku no you na toki no naka de itsuka wakari aeru kara

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Tuesday, November 01, 2011

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one cant clap alone

it needs another one to clap with it..

but if the other refuses to work for it....

then there is not way can applause be heard...laughter be shared..

.its.so.colourful.and.beautiful.at.10:43 PM

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hmmm back in school...

fyp starts
and life just ends

lol sucks...i hope i can pull through and do some good work finally

.its.so.colourful.and.beautiful.at.1:25 PM

Sunday, September 11, 2011

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1 month is over~~
2 moreeee..

puhh... super sian
seriously stop assuming only your life suck ..
everyone have their up and downs in their life
no one's life is going to be perfect.

the only thing you can do is SUCK IT UP LIKE A MAN AND DEAL WITH IT
AS MUCH AS IT SUCKS [the advice] IT WORKS

life is not going to be nice
things dont always go your way

deal with it bitch

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