someone threw this right to my face. he gave me 2 options
one, keep the silence and paint it golden. and it'll be silence forever.
two, break the silence, lay down your pride in hope that he will lay his down, and apologise.
haiz... 2 dear people told me that some friends would break up because of a fight, some would emerge as better friends because they went through a fight.
so..in short one way or another i have to do. but~ neh will the silence be broken?..
this is a hard one..idiot who gave me so much trouble..ima bite you to death
it sucks when you care for people and they return the favour with shit replies or shit reaction if that the way you are going to respond to my caring for you then to heck with it.
im sick and tired but im trying to smile and laugh so that everyone around may feel the same hopefully...i tried to care for you..but apparently it was deem nosy. you can be irritated...but dont fucking vent it on me..
i hate it when i try to care and people return with these reactions.
it seems my care.love.concern are not needed at all. therefore i think its time to take it all back and maybe return to my old self..
soon..i think..
soon
.its.so.colourful.and.beautiful.at.10:58 PM
Friday, February 05, 2010
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hahaha funny video about singapore complain choir...lols
.its.so.colourful.and.beautiful.at.12:14 AM
Thursday, February 04, 2010
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i'm tired.
.its.so.colourful.and.beautiful.at.1:07 AM
Friday, January 29, 2010
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lols recently, my lil dino like to come my studio or anytime i have projects/class to find me. no idea why. apparently i think she's too free.
lols..had some fun with my lappie cam with her/gary/uriah/melvin in the library. she and her NO make up campaign..lols. oh~recently saw honey and vivi too.. they visited me during 2D art..lols.. boring and shitty module...
puh...i need to go out play soon..before i go crazy
.its.so.colourful.and.beautiful.at.11:49 PM
Thursday, January 28, 2010
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i have to always take care of you. i have to always look after you. but you dont seem to realise. its sickening.
your fucking reputation is weighing down too much on me. im only this small. only this young. only this inexperience. only have this time to build my dreams and live my life.
people have fun. i cant seem to find my own fun. at least there's a small portion, thank god. is this period of my life gonna be like this? i wish you know how heavy the reputation you are so proud for is being piled on me. i cant take it anymore. sometimes i wish i can go somewhere else where no one knows you or me. so i can live as free as i can be. i can give the widest smile to the people i see.
it sucks when i realise people remember me because of you and not me. i have a name. its not "your sister."
It's angela.
.its.so.colourful.and.beautiful.at.1:16 AM
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my friend talk to me rather seriously about trust.
he asked me if i ever really trust anyone from the bottom of my heart. i stumbled on my reply.
well honestly, i have to say i dont have one. and i believe no one can say they believe/trust anyone from the bottom of their heart.
he then explain to me his lil case thats bothering him. after we talk it through, i was still thinking.
We dont trust anyone but we yearn for companion.
he said he wish he could throw away all the useless emotions and feel free. i said lols go ahead, its your life.
i said its life you know, why not just give it a chance and have a go though the ending might hurt you alot.
like how i told him. It might sting. It might Hurt.
but at the same time, it can also bring to you joy, laughter and happiness. i rather have a go at it and suffer in the end then no doing anything at all.
so i really hope i can trust someone wholeheartedly though i know i might end up hurt and bruised. i hope i can find my special bus that im waiting for all the time.